The sun rose this morning with a smile on its face. It mocked my decaffeinated mind as if to say “its almost March and you still haven’t accomplished any of your goals this year.” Too much guilt for me to be thinking of at seven in the morning. That was when coffee entered the equation.
Winter usually doesn’t affect me until mid-February but in a strange twist of events, I was done dealing with the blustery cold in mid-December. My photography and drawing art projects had come to a halt. On 2017’s shortest, darkest day, I found myself void of creative thought. The 21st of December leached me of all creative intuition. That day I realized that something drastic needed to be done. I had to fix the creative side of my brain. Winter, with all of its hard shadows, had broken it.
I made a list of all the things I wanted to accomplish in 2018. It had 22 items on it. Some were small deals, like wanting to finish 52 original drawings. One a week for the year doesn’t seem like too much work, right? In December that seemed doable. In almost March, with no drawings completed fully, it seems an insurmountable task. Plans for three different drawing series are knocking around inside my head, including a unicorn drawing series where I will refuse to use the color pink because I like to make things difficult.
Also on the list is finishing a movie script that I started writing in college. I can finally say after over fifteen years that it is complete. Slaving over it this month allowed me to exorcize some demons from last year that I didn’t realize existed. With the script done and on its way to getting judged in a film festival, the creative side of me has finally reawakened, and two of my 2018 goals were finally complete.
I found the energy within my introverted self to brave the Super Bowl crowds that had invaded my city to visit the Winter Carnival Orchid Show. There were cattleya orchids everywhere and I could feel the inspiration coming. They whispered sweet encouragement in my ears even after I had retreated into the quiet of my art studio. Spring will be here soon, those orchids promised. Soon. March is only a couple days away. The shadows are lifting.
I’ll leave you with a quote from Elizabeth Taylor, who would have been 86 today: “You just do it. You force yourself to get up. You force yourself to put one foot before the other, and god damn it, you refuse to let it get you.”
Prints of my photos are available on my Etsy page: Becky Tyler Art and Photography